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12:37 AM
[mood] bad bad n bad
[listening] ni zhi dao wo ai ni - qiu ze
[doing] work
[thinking] some stupid module....later in the post u will noe.....
[quote] Mayb God had chosen my path for me....
today i went for my cpr course....
or wat is noe as the BCLS....
and it sux terribly....
let's start fr the beginning of the day.....
LATECOMERS ARE NOT ALLOWED TO ENTER THE CLASS
this is put on our booklet by the instructor....
and guess wat....
he himself was late for 15 mins....
stupid....
i should have print this instruction big big and paste it straight on his face.....
during the pract test,
they were so slow and inefficient lor....
made us wait and wait and wait.....
feel like going in and ask them,
"CAN U BE FASTER AND DUN TAKE UR TIME?"
yar.....and i failed my theory twice.....
and the prob is.....
where the hell did i go wrong?
none of us ( the 4 second time failures) noe where we went wrong.....
basket....
have to go for retest on 28th....
then i was telling eve.....
mayb God is trying to select my path for me.....
if i fail this and could not be a part time phelmbotamist,
me will be going on to full time teaching.....
and forget abt this line.....
i noe i will be wasting my 3 yrs of studies....
but....
i juz dun wanna stay here.....
it sux.....
the environment sux.....
the stress sux.....
the people sux.....
and i am not going to uni.....
so y waste my time?
if i have no degree,i will not have much future in this line izzen it?
teaching although the pay is really uncomparable to being a med tech.....
and i mayb earning 1000+ per month? with part time at most also 1300+?
but i think i will like it more there.....
dunno y.....juz like it more then the sucky lab......
forget abt tt thing le......
i leave it to God....
he will decide wat is good for me....
and one thing,
i left my notes in the waiting rm.....
and i couldn't be bothered abt it.....
destined.....
ct is coming....
and i am not studying.....
shit....
i haven started.....
and i dunno where to start.....
and i dunno y to start, since i am leaving this line.....
nah....the fustrating thing is.....
u noe u are leaving,
and yet u still have to get the dip before u go.....
haiz....
i am really tired....
juz tired.....
in the 'giving up mode' le....
my concern now is not to get As.....
but to pass and quickly graduate.....
and therefore,
i decide to spend more time on work now.....
studywise juz make sure i dun fail......
and get my dip.....
my advice to ppl out there:
dun come into biomed if,
1) u cannot take the stress
2) u r not going to uni
3) u dun like routine work
i admit tt i have made the wrong choice.....
* i am going to break down any moment*
12:33 AM
[listening] xi wang - chen huiling
[mood] tired
[thinking] ct and tutorials lah....wat else.....
[doing] TRYING very hard to do my tutorial....
[quote] a tired man is an irritable man
ok....wat else to write.....complains......
pls bear with me for a while.....
so much tutorials to do.....
and my private students setting of worksheets.....
marking and some stupid stuff......
feel like giving up......
but i noe i cannot.....
juz dunno y......
mayb working so hard make me not so stress in my course.....
or mayb i am escaping fr something.....
i dunno.....
kk.....enuf.....i also buay tahan.....so much complains......
now something happy.....
i have got job offer le.....
being a full time assistant at XXX learning centre.....
wohoo.....
thanx ms gan......
but another prob......
the centre is onli open fr sat to tues....
tt means other days i need another part time......
omg.....where am i going to find a part time.....
related to my course and at the same time onli work on wed thurs and fri?
*shrugs*
okok.....i shall juz leave it until the day i graduate......
then think abt it.....
feel like my energy is all drained......
tired.....
Being a part in ur journey of life is my happiness
For i will be ur companion if u r lonely
Being a listener to ur stories is my pleasure
For i will be the comforter if u cry
Being a person hu always walk behind u is my insist
For i will be support if u fall
Being a friend to u is my blessing
For i will be forever by ur side
Forever ur companion, ur comforter and ur support
Ur friend
ok.....tt is my crappy eng.....
*not suitable for eng pros*
*yawnz*
2:06 AM