_lonely me_
11:36 PM

[mood] hmm....
[listening] ma de li bu si yi - jolin
[doing] ???
[thinking] ???

feeling kinda weird nowadays.....
dunno y....juz weird.....
juz feel tt smthg is not right....
am i nuts?

mayb i am nuts ba.....
exam coming....
should i study?
i got so many things to do....
and yet i feel so lost....
wat to do nxt?
wat to start with?
and the prob is....
i am not kan jiong at all!!!
*confused*

ok...enuf of tt....
i have decide to go donate bld on wed.....
looking for a company but....
some say they not heavy enuf.....
low hb....
no vein....
not free.....
still got one even say he will faint!!!
haiz....forget it.....
i am used to being alone anyway.....
mayb i juz dun need others.....

abt working in polyclinic....
i kind of decide already.....
shall tok to my auntie sharon if i had the chance tml.....
this kind of things it is better to tok to her alone.....
yar....and if everything goes smoothly.....

suddenly feel like toking to someone.....
but.....
hmm......
i think it is better to tok to myself and be a nut case....
oh no.....i am thinking alot agn.....
y is this old prob of mine coming back agn?
me shall go to slp aft blogging.....

i dun feel like going to mawai.....
beside the whole issue abt leeches.....
i juz dun feel safe.....
and i dun like it when ppl tt i dunno also go.....
ok lah....juz say tt i am scared.....
yes i am scared.....
i have nvr ever been to a camp before.....
and i assume tt i dun like camps.....
the idea of living in a place full of bugs.....
the idea of playing games and getting urself wet and muddy.....
the idea of living in the wildness.....
with no proper facillities.....
no tv no lappy....
simply nothing.....
and i rather stay here and work and earn money.....
then to go mawai and bangkok.....
i juz dun feel secure.....
haiz....

anyway.....
a little thing to be happy abt....
yar....i am completing my lvl G eng.....

enuf for today.....
i hope tt these few days i will have the motivation to start and know how to write my report and my tutorial......
and of cos start studying for my exams......
and have to do the troublesome poster.....
for some stupid scientific meeting....
which huever tt join got in....
wat kind of scientific meeting is tt?

*listening to wo hen xiang ai ta by twins now.....
simply like the lyrics....
floating into dreamland......*

_lonely me_
11:22 PM

Friday, July 21, 2006

[mood] :)
[listening] ni zui yong gan - twins
[doing] tutorial presentation
[thinking] something

i got so much things to do....
haiz....
sianz sia....

life as polyclinic is still equally fun....
haha....
with all my colleagues....
i simply love the life there.....

i was thinking whether to work there or not.....
be a locum.....
cos auntie sharon say she need ppl to work on sat.....
and i told her i am interested to work in polyclinic.....
she ask me to consider then tell her my decision.....
me still considering....
the onli thing i dun like is tt i muz float ard all the polyclinc.....
haiz.....

*thinking*thinking*thinking*

_lonely me_
2:23 AM

Sunday, July 16, 2006

[mood] -
[listening] jia zhuang - jolin
[doing] relaxing...later work....
[thinking] today

today is my bday....
yupps....
but it seem so silent.....
nvm....
it shall be a norm day for me....

thanks for those hu rmb my bday.....
-Vanessa
-Magdeline
-Priscillia
-all staff of bb polyclinic
-my special boy :)

My prezzies.....



























































A silent bday......
A silent yr ahead........

_lonely me_
1:05 AM

Thursday, July 13, 2006

[mood] *yawn*
[listening] wo men de ji nian ri - fan weiqi
[doing] trying to do something
[thinking] haiz

we did a stupid thing today.....
a fire drill......
it was really lame.....
and so funny.....
hear all the staff tok abt pts.....
when the staff say "got fire" and ask pt to get out of the building.....
the pt say "blaf me de, i want my med...."
wat if it is a real one?

me and zixiu mislabelled a tube today.....
we were like "arghhhhh".....
luckily we manage to get someone in je polyclinic to remove the tube and sent it back to us b4 it reaches AH.....
heng ar.....

today i celebrated mine and auntie sharon's bday......












* auntie sharon n me

and gladys jie jie buy de cake is so nice........
a really big chocolate cake......












thanks gladys jie jie......
and lunch we went to eat at the coffee shop nearby.....
we really have a nice chat during lunch.....
so nan de everyone eat lunch together.....
Thanks everyone for the lunch and cake......
I LOVE BB POLYCLINIC!
*wonderful memories of bb polyclinic.....













* Zixiu n me














* me, Gladys jie jie and Wai teng














* Kim, me and Ivy

tml auntie sharon will be on leave.....
and someone called "caroline" will be coming over.....
and tml me half day.....
sianz sia....
i rather stay at bb ployclinic the whole day than to go back np to attend the boring lect.....
:(

_lonely me_
9:39 PM

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

[mood] like tt lor.....
[listening] zhen de - zhang shao han
[doing] wat else?! work lah.....
[thinking] hmm.....tml.....the day aft tml....2 days aft tml.....3 days aft tml......
4 days aft tml

raining this morn.....
and everyone was late.....
8 am pt come in tt time.....
onli me and gladys jie jie....
stress sia....
but luckily zixiu and auntie sharon came shortly aft tt......

guess wat?
i met my sec 1 chi teacher today.....
and i help him do ecg.....
he recognises me but couldn't rmb my name.....
but i am glad tt he still rmb me.....
really hopes tt he take good care of his health.....

started copying the SOP today.....
sianz.....
can i dun study so hard and still get good results?
can i have 10% of Ron's brain? lol......

really tired nowadays.....
and my throat a bit dry.....
feeling giddy at work today....
and my gastric prob is coming back.....
din tell any of my colleagues.....
getting sick izzit?
nah.....if i go see the doc....
she will say tt i overworked.....
waste my money.....
so wat if i overwork?
so wat if i work till i die?
die jiu die lah.....
then i dun have to worry abt my results anymore.....
and all my undone reports.....
i am getting a big headache.....

_lonely me_
11:59 PM

Monday, July 10, 2006

[mood] bad
[listening] yi yan wan nian - SHE
[doing] h/w
[thinking] my lousy results
[quote] study = no study, so y must i study?

got back my ct paper today.....
guess wat?
i failed one module.....
yeah.....
dotx....
fail chem.....sianz.....
haem and micro also juz passed onli.....
wat to do? *shrugs*
it only proves tt i am stupid......

kanna nag by ms ong also.....
she ask me if i am working....
i said yes.....
but i din tell her i got 2 jobs......
she will sure scold one lor.....
she even suggest tt i go ask auntie sharon see if i can work at polyclinic which pays $7 per hour......
haha.....
i was thinking.....
"pls lah! hu would wanna employ me.....
yue bang yue mang onli......lol......"
and the poor Ron.....
haha.....
kanna implicated.....

anyway.....
by right i should be contented tt i passed 2 modules cos i din study......
but......
i really xin hui yi leng le......
dishearted.....

the stupid mawai thingy changed agn....
to the wk of 2nd to 6th oct.....
wasn't tt interested in tt....
with all the leeches ard....
yucks.....
but i looked forward to the bangkok trip.....
wohoo.....
finally i am going beyond malaysia.....
haha.....

tml will be back at polyclinic.....
i hope nothing goes wrong.....
yupps....

sianz ah!!!
still got so much work to do :
- polyclinic report
- fyp report
- fyp presentation
- tutorial presentation
- 8 tutorial essays
i am going crazy man......

*yawnz* tata......

_lonely me_
11:53 PM

Sunday, July 09, 2006

[mood] ???
[listening] ni zui yong gan - twins
[doing] tutorial
[thinking] someone......
[quote]-

was busy the whole day today....
wanted to go to church but i was really tired....
slept at 3 yesterday.....
so din manage to get up......

aft tt i went for my class....
then to tutor my cousin....
then went to jp to buy something for auntie sharon.....
yupps....

nxt wk i hope it would be a wonderful wk for me.....
will be celebrating auntie sharon and my bday at polyclinic.....
thanks to zixiu....haha....she is the one hu suggest and organise it......
it would be on thurs cos auntie sharon is off n i have to be at np on fri.....
and sat will be going out with my dear colleagues.....
shopping dinner and stuff......
:D

and yar,
HAPPY BDAY to my dearies:

kak Siti - end of june
Xilei - start of july
Caiqing - 4th july
Fiona - 14th july
auntie Sharon - 14th july
Yushu - 17th july
Sherlyn - 17th july
Xinni - 19th july

Best wishes and God bless......

tt's all folks!!!

hai yang de dui an
shi meng xiang de gang wan
huo shi nan mian shi bai
ou er gu dan
zong neng zui gan
ru guo shou le xiao xiao de feng han
wo de xin yi zhi wei ni qu nuan
ni zhi dao wo yong yuan bu li kai

yue guo yi pian hai
shi ni zai de gang wan
sui ran nan mian shi bai ou er gu dan
wo neng ming bai
nu li jie shou yan qian de tiao zhan
wo de xin yi zhi he ni tong zai
wo zhi dao ni yi zhi zui yong gan

_lonely me_
10:52 PM

Monday, July 03, 2006

[mood] ?
[listening] yi ge xiang xia tian yi ge xing qiu tian - fan weiqi
[doing] reading notes
[thinking] the song "wo hai ji de" by liang jing ru
[quote] i am autumn, but hu is my summer?

have been really busy but happy.....
i really love my attachment at bb polyclinic.....
i did a lot of tests with my bld on fri.....
and it came out all norm.....
lol....it is suppose to be norm.....
haha.....
but i got a needlestick injury on the same day.....
:'(

yesterday was work......
it was huiling's last day.....
so sad....2 yrs colleagues le.....
wish her all the best....

have been thinking alot nowadays.....
i think my lao mao bing is back.....
haha....
but still ok.....
controllable.....
juz thinking of my future.....
so fan.....

tml is mon agn.....
back to lect.....so sianz.....
i hope tues come fast fast.....
so tt i can go back to polyclinic :D

Dear,
although i noe u wun look at this cos i nvr gave u my blog add.....
or mayb i nvr wanted to let u noe this......
but ya.....
take good care of urself in army,k?
or else there will be no one to
ask me "how r u?",
chat with me on wkends,
listen to my nonsense n
quarrel with me le......
no matter what,
juz be happy and healthy always.......

with lots of luv......


*A friend noes wat u want even before u say it, so hu is the one tt noe wat i want?*


To Smurffy,
it was nice chatting with u online.....
although i have nvr meet u,
but it was really nice noeing u online.....
take gd care in army.....
look forward to chatting with u agn.....

PS: the story u sent me is really nice......

_lonely me_
1:41 AM